Still

Life has been pretty hectic lately. I recently started a new job, grad classes began, and the adjustment…has been an adjustment.

In an effort to maximize my time, I decided to begin working out again after work. I’m really good at piling it on. I could be extremely busy but because I’m passionate about something, I’ll add it on anyway instead of just saying no. I wouldn’t even think it through because for some reason I felt the need to make a quick decision rather than weighing the cost.

So one night, when I came home from a marathon of work and working out, I found a creature waiting for me on my front door. It was a praying mantis.

I screamed a little, and then I felt like 1,000 bugs were crawling all over my body. I know this is dramatic but that’s how I felt. I even added it to my story on IG and sent a picture to a friend.  A message I received on IG seemed prophetic. It seems the praying mantis is a symbol of meditation, patience, and stillness. As I did a little online digging over the next week or so and paid attention to what God had been urging me to do, I realized that this thing that showed up on my door didn’t seem to be there without reason. I believe it was God telling me to slow down, be still, and think things through. Not to make any decisions in haste but to stay the course until I’m sure.

About a month ago I began listening to an audiobook by Brené Brown. The title of the book is The Power of Vulnerability. It is a MUST read/listen. In chapter 44 she says “would you rather be certain and miserable or uncertain and wholehearted?”

I don’t know about you but I’ve rushed MANY decisions just try to get to the end. I am famous for saying “so what do you want to do?” hoping to get to an end. What God is teaching me, and what he may be teaching you, is to wait and to really take your time.

If you’ve ever been heartbroken, it can be difficult to let things play out but if there’s anything I’ve learned this year, it’s that sometimes God sends you the desires of your heart in a package you didn’t expect. To recognize it as being from God, you may have to wait. I almost ruined a great opportunity because I couldn’t see past my fears and wait it out.

So, don’t be like old me – quick to make a decision and miserable, ending something without thinking it through, withdrawing completely because withdrawing appears to be easier than dealing. Be like new me – let things play out and be true to yourself so when it’s time to make a decision, you’ll make the right one.

Happy Waiting!

 

Don’t Block Your Blessing

Not long ago I was torn between a few opportunities. One was more familiar than the rest but they all had their pros and cons.

I worried myself to death about them. Ok, not to death but you get the point. 

Several months later, I realized the original opportunity was the best one by far.

We do the same with relationships. Worry, worry, worry…..instead of just living and enjoying the moment.

While driving home today I decided to reflect a bit more on all that had happened. One opportunity was clear cut and pretty straight forward while the others were a windy road of uncertainty. 

Most of all, I realized God already knew the outcome and was waiting on me to come around. 

How many times has God presented you with an opportunity and you scrutinized it to death? You put so much worry and fear into it that you could no longer rejoice about it. 

Since God already knows the end, we don’t have to worry about the outcome. Waiting comes to an end, but the lesson won’t…. if you don’t learn it.

Do yourself a favor – don’t worry. Trust me when I say I’ve worried enough for the both of us and it literally got me nowhere. 

Happy Waiting!