Where There’s Smoke…

Thank God for the smoke.

When I look back on my dating life there was a lot of smoke I ignored. I might as well have been fanning the flames. Even when things caught on fire, I still looked the other way.

Oftentimes red flags come early. Flags don’t have to be serious things. Red flags are any reasonable thing that you know won’t work for you.

While at a singles event a few months ago, we were asked to tell someone our non-negotiables. I heard everything from liars to cheaters to kids. Yes kids. That was mine…

Now there are others but that was the first thing that came to mind. You have to decide what your non-negotiables are and stop negotiating.

As we get older it becomes easier to relax our expectations just to be with someone. But what if relaxing your expectations puts you in bad company or situations you can’t reverse…

A wise woman once said “take your time, do it right.” I’m not talking about sex, I’m talking about choosing. You’ve waited this long (I think I’m ministering to myself) and now you have the opportunity to make a good choice. Don’t throw it all away.

Pay attention to the flags. It’ll save you lots of time and heartache.

Happy Waiting!

Check On Your Strong (Single) Friend

Not long ago there was a Huffington Post article with the title Don’t Forget To Check On Your Strong Friend. After a series of events, this blog post was inspired by that article.

A few weeks ago I was having a really bad week. There were some things that were out of my control and everything was coming at me at the same time.

Within 48 hours of each other, two friends reached out. Both were folks I hadn’t talked to in a while and said I was either on their mind or showed up in a dream. One thing is for sure, that week, I really needed a friend and a reminder that God sees my hurt and will send people to check in on me.

There was a particular day that week that was really hard. I don’t usually let myself cry but in-between both conversations I cried. I mean it was an ugly mess up your makeup kind-of cry.

I’m really good at putting things up on the shelf and leaving them there until I’m ready to deal. But one day, sometimes years later, I’ll break down and cry.

I had a conversation with a friend about what it’s like to be single and not have someone lay eyes on you everyday. There have been times when I’m really going through it and I call 3 friends and no one answers. With no fault on their parts, everyone is busy, what happens when I really need someone and can’t find anyone to share with? People assume that when you’re single, you’re just out living your life when in reality, you could be at home in a puddle of tears.

This is why the title of this post is check on your strong (single) friend. We need to know there’s someone out there thinking about us, praying for us, and checking in on us. Lay eyes on us and make sure we’re ok. Even those of us who are “strong” get weak and could really use a friend.

Happy Waiting.

A Time and a Season

Last week I bought 2 mangos. I LOVE mangos and I planned on eating them, at different times, for dessert. I guess fruit isn’t what most people would deem a dessert but it is for me.

I felt the first mango and I thought it was ripe enough to eat. Well…after cutting it and attempting to peel back the skin, it wasn’t. I was super disappointed but had 1 more mango left.

So a couple of days later, I felt up the second mango and attempted to eat it. It was so hard y’all. I couldn’t believe I had done the same thing TWICE! And wasted two perfectly good mangos smh!

Later on that week, I bought another mango. I took my time selecting it and made sure it was close to being ready to eat. I even waited another day or two. Then, when I was ready to eat it, I checked it again and decided to give it another day.

Finally, it was ready to eat and it was DELICIOUS! I am SO glad I waited.

I know me. Sometimes I rush to get to the end. I want that mango, that job, that boo and I’ll try to make a determination before it’s time. Do you do this as well? Or are you waiting patiently for the right time and the right season?

I believe God takes us through waiting periods. He has to work somethings out in us. While it is annoying to have to wait and watch and wait, sometimes it’s just not the right time.

I threw away two perfectly good mangos because I didn’t want to wait. I wanted what I wanted when I wanted it and ended up having to start all over.

I could have had 3 mangos by now smh.

So I implore you to wait. Wait for the right time, wait for the right season, wait until you have all of the facts or as many as you can get. Wait until you’re sure. Don’t rush it but also don’t move too slow. If you rush it, it may not be ready, you may not have all of the facts and you may have to throw it away. If you wait too long the opportunity might pass you by.

We’re in the middle of wedding season and I know the tendency for some is to push something further than it needs to go to get to the desired end. Don’t be that girl or guy. Wait. Take your time and make the very best decision.

There is a time and a season for EVERYTHING. Wait for your time and your season.

Happy Waiting!

Do it Alone

If you’ve been dating any length of time it can be difficult to transition from being in a relationship to being single again.

I remember knowing a relationship was coming to an end, and dreading the “get over it” process because for me, it lasted a long time.

After being with someone for a time, it can be difficult to go at life alone. You’re not getting sweet calls or texts throughout the day or looking forward to someone holding you at night. If you never develop the ability to be alone and content, your happiness will always be dependent upon someone else and you don’t that…well, I don’t want that.

There is strength in waiting. I know that doesn’t sound glamorous but learning how to do things on your own and enjoy your own company is something we should all strive for.

Some of us (I’ve definitely done this) will keep someone around who we know isn’t good for us.

He (or she) is convenient. They’re there when you want to go out, cuddle, have sex, go to the movies or just chill at the house. But you know he/she is not the one. You’ve always known. No news here.

So you buy time with this person. They may also be buying time with you but that’s another post for another day.

Have you heard the saying, “don’t waste your pretty?”, well don’t waste your time either. There may be some spiritual and emotional development God wants you to do and odds are, He wants you all to himself while He does a work in you.

I used to hate going places alone.  Now I go out to eat alone, the movies, I even go on trips…alone!  I got tired of wanting to go and do and not having someone to go and do with. Now, I do have friends, but spending time with a significant other is different.

I say all of this to say, go at it alone. You don’t have to have someone around for you to be ok. You can be happy all by yourself. If your happiness depends on someone else, you’ll never truly be happy.

You are responsible for your own happiness. Yes you, all by yourself. Take some time for yourself, get to know you again and don’t be afraid to do it alone.

Happy Waiting!

Who You Gonna Eat With?

Tonight while talking to my 3-year-old niece she asked, “who you gonna eat with?” I was a little taken aback so I asked her to repeat what she said.

Just as lively as ever she again said “WHO YOU GONNA EAT WITH!?!?”

You see, I was at home and attempting to get off of the phone to have dinner. She didn’t understand that I could be eating alone since she eats with at least 2 people every time she sits down for a meal.

I asked her if it was ok for me to eat alone and she said “No, you have to eat with someone.”

Can I be honest? I’ve been eating alone for a long time. I’m ready to eat with someone.

January and February were, in some ways, transformational for me. I realized I was filling my singleness void by adding extra responsibilities and opportunities. It was easier to digest a lack of dates if I was working towards a particular life goal – be it education, career, or other personal goals.

Ultimately, I wasn’t prioritizing it. I wasn’t prioritizing meeting someone. It seemed pointless. I can count the number of dates I have been on in the last several years and still have fingers left.  I was ok with keeping the same routine and seeing what happens but I realized the only way I can make something happen is to put myself out there.

So I started varying the places and events I go to. I started going to brunch on weekends alone – this was a tip given to me by an older woman. I started switching up my routine and in someways yeah, I met some guys. I didn’t meet THE guy but I met and was asked out by some. This didn’t amount to anything but I am giving it a shot.

I don’t want to eat alone and as my niece said, it’s “not ok to eat alone” (well… it is but you get my point). So she promised she would keep an eye out for someone I can eat with and while she’s on the look out, I’ll be putting my best foot forward. So the next time she asks WHO YOU GONNA EAT WITH? I can give her a name.

Happy Waiting!