A Full Upgrade

So tomorrow is my birthday and I have lots of emotions. It’s the first time in a long time that things are working well and not working very well at all.

On Saturday, someone hit my (parked) car. I didn’t realize the extent of the damage until I tried to open the passenger door. Thank God I didn’t have someone else in the car.

There are a few things that are broken or need to be replaced around the house. While I am blessed to have a house, it feels like everything is falling apart.

Now, I can totally admit I’ve been emotional lately and am in desperate need of some fun times – but I can’t help but to remember that time I was sitting in my room, in my apt,tears rolling down my face  and with anger I said to God, “FINE! If you’re going to change things, I’m going to need a FULL upgrade!”

Since then, things have been changing. My old job became a new job. My old boss became a new boss. I bought a house, started grad school, and was recently promoted. Things fell apart to fall together. 

So today, while I am a bit uncomfortable, I am also hopeful because I know God can do the possible. 

I’m trusting God or a FULL upgrade. I hope you’re trusting Him too. 

Happy Waiting! 

Valentine’s Day Victory

It’s the end of Valentine’s Day and it was better than I imagined!

At church on Sunday, the Pastor said a sex therapist would be talking about singles and sex on Tuesday (today). I was a little skeptical and planned on eating ice cream and reading into Valentine’s night but I decided to go. I’m so glad I did.

Here are some of takeaways…

Assistant Lead Pastor Larry Paige gave us these little bits of wisdom –

First, you must know your purpose. You have to know you well. Know what you will and won’t do and exactly what you’re looking for. I spoke about this in an earlier blog post. You can find it here.

He also said to be patient. You should spend more time preparing than dating. This was in response to a question about how long is too long to wait for a proposal. This spoke volumes to me since I haven’t been in a serious/committed relationship in 4+ years. I feel like I’m overdue but hey, I want to be ready when the time comes.

He also spoke about permission. While I don’t remember everything he said regarding this, the message was to investigate. Don’t fall for potential. Oftentimes potential is just that, potential. Trust me when I say I’ve dated potential and he never changes!

If you want to learn more about Larry Paige you can find his bio and information about the here. If you’re not in the area, there’s a live stream! Watch it from your living room. It was a great way to end Valentine’s Day.

Have a good night!

Intuition FTW!

Tonight I’m listening to a sermon about doing what God has led you to do.  I’m actually listening to it now.  I was led to write about my waiting-singleness (years ago actually) and I’ve been slacking royally.   Priscilla Shirer is preaching and she is amazing! Once again, she has inspired me. So here it goes…

I’m still single. I probably sound bitter saying that but I’m ok. One thing I learned in 2016 is to listen to the God in me. My intuition always kicks in and somehow I manage to explain it away, or give it more time, or wait for something to change. All the while realizing my intuition is ALWAYS right.

You could be dating the most wonderful guy/girl in the world. He/She’s everything on your list and even some things you didn’t ask for. He/She’s also willing to wait but something isn’t right. Your intuition is knocking and no matter how long you wait or how much you try… something. isn’t. right.

Walk away.

Trust me. It’s better to be hurt now than hurt later. Someone greater is coming. Let this one go.

Happy Waiting!

 

 

The Shunammite Woman

While at church on Sunday the guest pastor (Keith Battle) told us to turn to 2 Kings 4. In this chapter, there is a story about a Shunammite woman who prepared a room for Elisha in her home. He wanted to repay her, so he asked her what she wanted and she said she didn’t need anything and that she was fine.

Upon further investigation, he found out she didn’t have a son and her husband was old. He told her she would bear a son. Essentially she said, “don’t play with my feelings” but just as he said, a year later she bore a son.

Years (presumably) later , the boy became sick and then he died. Rather than telling or reasoning with her husband or telling those in the town, she set out on a journey to find the prophet Elisha and tell him what happened to her son.

Long story short, he brought him back to life.  You can read more about this story here. What’s interesting and what the pastor mentioned is that she didn’t tell anyone he died. She went to the one who prophesied the birth of her son so that he could bring him back to life.

This reminds me of our relationship with God. We may have waited long and prayed much and for whatever reason, God says it’s not our time. Eventually, we become content but lose faith. This woman had lost her faith and didn’t want to think about having a child but she did, just as Elisha said she would. I have to believe her faith was strengthened and restored because she learned that God hadn’t forgotten about her.

It’s the same for you and me. You’ve waited long and tried hard with no results. You had faith but it has been washed away with time and tears. God knows your heart, and He’s already preparing your breakthrough.

Although her faith had been tested, the woman in the story kept serving God’s people. Maybe that’s the message in all of this, to keep on serving until it’s your turn.

While you wait, keep on praying until your faith is restored and keep on believing until God brings you your miracle.